Wow, bloggin' two days in a row! Gracious I must have too much time on my hands!
Ok, so, today starts my zap sessions. Not to be confused w/ rap sessions, which I'd much rather attend.
I'm not anxious or worried about radiation itself, its just the anxiety of knowing that this is our plan of attack but NOT knowing for SURE if it'll work. Yes, I remain positive, I plan for this to work, but I'd be lyin if I said I was 100% confident, and that's the part that gives way to trepidation. Just bein honest, homies.
Last nite, Steff, Debra, John Holden and I saw 50/50. He completed his chemo, and was at home, calling a friend to see if he could take him to his doc appt the next day. He said "This is the big one." I knew immediately what he was talking about....Its the appointment when he finds out if his treatment worked or not. I can't tell you how that feels, and I hope none of you ever have to know (if you haven't had the....um..."opportunity" to feel it before). Its a very surreal experience, one of those life-changin moments, one of those "before" and "after" things. And since its most unpleasant to hear bad news in that situation, I'm insisting on good news.
So, we've had a great week with Steff and Debra here. They claim they have to leave in the morning, but I might have to sabotage that little scenario. Brother Jeffrey and sis-in-law June will be here tomorrow evenin, which'll be pretty cool. They'll be here for the weekend, then niece Dana will be here mid-week next week. What a lucky little gurl I am, and I mean that. Its been so great - SO great - gettin to see my friends and family, and make plans for more return visits and more visitors. I'm privileged, honored and humbled.
Better go for now, peeps, and get ready. We simply can't decide if we'd like to lunch out, or eat here before we go.....Life is tough sometimes. < Big sigh> :o)
Hope you're all well! Love you!
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